Lord, teach us how to pray – in so many times I’ve asked you what to give me, how to do my life, never did I asked you what do you want me to do. Lord, I have been blinded by what I need and desire most, which is to check on the material things that I don’t have yet. I forgot to ask how to do my life for you. Lord, my weaknesses you have filled-up, my cross you have carried, and my sins you have forgiven. I ask forgiveness for being blind not see the most important thing for me, and that is my family. You know how much I value them, just thinking that one day, I will lose them, I don’t know already what to do with my life, yet, I’m not doing my best to show them how much I care for them, how much I value them and how much I love them.
How about you, do you pray enough to have learned enough?
Our father, I know I still have time to correct my wrongdoings. I asked you to please forgive me and guide me. Teach me how to pray, teach me how to love, teach me how to follow you. Amen.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
my getting married
Getting married last June 11, 2008 was the last thing I have thought about. Why? Simply because I have quit the idea of getting married ever. I've even prayed to God that I am surrendering myself to Him and promised Him that I will stay faithful to Him, ever. What I do not know was that, God has other plan for me.
My friend, told me about someone that she wants me to meet. She said, he is a friend of her boyfriend. To my dismay, he did not want to meet me because he does not like the idea of being paired off. To cut the long story short, we did not meet. And I didn't like him or his attitude per se because I thought he was being boastful. Then, time passed by. My friend together with her boyfriend went to other country, the same place where that friend of her boyfriend stays. One time, my friend and I were chatting when he saw me on-line. He asked my friend, if i am that person he's supposed to meet back in Manila, and my friend said, yes. The funny thing he did was he memorized my yahoo id and add me on his YM list. The unexpected happened, I've accepted his request and he started sending me messages. Because I am still hurt with what he did to me the last time he was here in the Philippines, I am always off-line on his list. Hahaha!! At last, I got my revenge. I told my friend that he's sending me messages and my friend said, go talk to him as he is good, anyway. Then, one time he was on-line and I, too, was on-line, I've decided to make myself visible on his list and chatted with him.
Truly, God is amazing! I never realized that I would find myself laughing with his jokes and actually exchanging ideas with him over YM and yahoo voice. Then, we send text messages and call through cellphone. I didn't expect that he will tell me, one day, that he liked me after months of talking. I've prayed again and asked God, if He was joking with me. As much as possible, I don't want to be unfaithful to God. But I know in my heart that I follow whatever is His will for me. It is always His will, not mine. I've prayed so hard that if this things were true, God will allow him to go back and ask my hand in person. He went back here and proposed marriage. After a few more months again, we got married.
Now, I am married, I cannot and will not say that it will all be sweet music being together. I've discovered our differences already (and I know there are more) but I've taken the chances. I've allowed my God to decide on my life. I just followed. Wherever, God will bring me I know one thing, I must blossom. I am happy that I allowed God to control my life because without it, I will not be this happy. Thank you Lord, for being my God. To my husband, thank you for allowing God to use you and thus, making me happy.
My friend, told me about someone that she wants me to meet. She said, he is a friend of her boyfriend. To my dismay, he did not want to meet me because he does not like the idea of being paired off. To cut the long story short, we did not meet. And I didn't like him or his attitude per se because I thought he was being boastful. Then, time passed by. My friend together with her boyfriend went to other country, the same place where that friend of her boyfriend stays. One time, my friend and I were chatting when he saw me on-line. He asked my friend, if i am that person he's supposed to meet back in Manila, and my friend said, yes. The funny thing he did was he memorized my yahoo id and add me on his YM list. The unexpected happened, I've accepted his request and he started sending me messages. Because I am still hurt with what he did to me the last time he was here in the Philippines, I am always off-line on his list. Hahaha!! At last, I got my revenge. I told my friend that he's sending me messages and my friend said, go talk to him as he is good, anyway. Then, one time he was on-line and I, too, was on-line, I've decided to make myself visible on his list and chatted with him.
Truly, God is amazing! I never realized that I would find myself laughing with his jokes and actually exchanging ideas with him over YM and yahoo voice. Then, we send text messages and call through cellphone. I didn't expect that he will tell me, one day, that he liked me after months of talking. I've prayed again and asked God, if He was joking with me. As much as possible, I don't want to be unfaithful to God. But I know in my heart that I follow whatever is His will for me. It is always His will, not mine. I've prayed so hard that if this things were true, God will allow him to go back and ask my hand in person. He went back here and proposed marriage. After a few more months again, we got married.
Now, I am married, I cannot and will not say that it will all be sweet music being together. I've discovered our differences already (and I know there are more) but I've taken the chances. I've allowed my God to decide on my life. I just followed. Wherever, God will bring me I know one thing, I must blossom. I am happy that I allowed God to control my life because without it, I will not be this happy. Thank you Lord, for being my God. To my husband, thank you for allowing God to use you and thus, making me happy.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
1 There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens.
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot the plant.
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to tear down, and a time to build.
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.
5 A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather them; a time to embrace, and a time to be far from embraces.
6 A time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away.
7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to be silent, and a time to speak.
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
This is just awesome! Even before I was born, God knows already what will I need in this lifetime. I can't imagine life without God's wisdom in all these things that are happening into my life. I should say, that sometimes, it's just really me, who's being stubborn, but if I will look closely into God's message for me in my life, I would know that He designated everything into right perspective.
God, thank you so much for your infinite knowledge about everything. You just make life easier to bear and more fun to live with. I praise you with all my humbleness! Thank you, my dear God!
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot the plant.
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to tear down, and a time to build.
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.
5 A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather them; a time to embrace, and a time to be far from embraces.
6 A time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away.
7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to be silent, and a time to speak.
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
This is just awesome! Even before I was born, God knows already what will I need in this lifetime. I can't imagine life without God's wisdom in all these things that are happening into my life. I should say, that sometimes, it's just really me, who's being stubborn, but if I will look closely into God's message for me in my life, I would know that He designated everything into right perspective.
God, thank you so much for your infinite knowledge about everything. You just make life easier to bear and more fun to live with. I praise you with all my humbleness! Thank you, my dear God!
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